messed up

pretty messed up these days. too many things to do and deal with.

when is this all gg to end? or perhaps when will there be an equilibrium between issues/things to do & good rest(without having to think at all)? when will I have the energy or motivation to do all these? When will I get back the control of my life? When can I stop worrying?

seriously 烦死人.

半熟不爛

一位好朋友最近告訴我說, 我們這年齡就好像是半熟不爛的水果, neither here nor there, 不再年輕, 但也不算老. 半熟不爛, 果然是形容得恰到好處.

我們幾時才會成熟呢? 我反覆的問自己. 我們的思想, 行動等等, 現在還是個模糊的狀態, 反覆不定, 簡單來說就是 - 亂.

也許我們就是要在這 '亂' 中, 漸漸尋找 、學習、 並蛻變成一位真正有用的我.

在這成長成熟的過程, 我們要感謝的也很多...




雖然害怕成長, 但我們要知道, 這是一個必經的蛻變過程.  讓我們一起勇敢的走向前吧! =)

Bravery

If it's worth the challenge, shouldn't we take it on?  

我是鳄龟吗？

心魔的战争。。 要克服它真的好难！

感觉自己像是一只 鳄龟 （snapping turtle). 什么小事都想要　‘SNAP！ SNAP！ SNAP！，尤其是在家里。　
　

我忍。我尽量以保持沉默来面对。但这也不是解决的办法。

我要如何平心静气？

女人啊女人, 還真是麻煩!

收拾好心情, 繼續往前步走.

我好像比較了解自己了=)

dream

I haven't forgot about this blog. its just stagnant for a while. haha


That day I was discussing with a few colleagues about quarter life crisis. then one of them pointed out, its called quarter life only if we live till 100 years old.


*screams*  ya, that's absolutely right. kind of impossible to live till that age I guess, which means we have already spent 1/3 of our life. we probably have just 50 more years to live.


50 x 365 days = 18,250 days


I hope that I can fully utilize the physical body that I have now to achieve eternity for my soul. this is my dream. how about u?  =)

Random

I totally forgot about blogging until I switched on my laptop to upload some photos.. the reliance on smartphone simply makes the laptop less efficient.

well, just a summary of my life at this point of time: Entering the corporate world is not easy at all, more responsibilities & more competition = more things to worry about. I'm entering the 6th month of my working life since I've graduated and I think its time to set some goals.

oh, and having seen my friend's DRASTIC change in improving her health and fitness, I'm also super motivated to tone up and exercise on a regular basis. n I think I need to set an alarm to do squats daily.

keeping my fingers crossed that this motivation can last longer. lol!

Finally, I'm declared a healthy person, with a healthy pumping heart.

For the past 3 months, I tried to think positive, tried to accept the fact that I might have a heart problem, my high risk of cardiac arrest and sudden death.

many thoughts, many struggles, many worries and then acceptance. really glad to have friends to help me tide through this period, reading up on the problem and comforting words. it definitely wasn't easy.

Anyway, it was a meaningful experience and I've learnt to treasure my precious life.

i'm soooooo glad. phew!

Needs exercise!

Realised I haven't been exercising ever since my iso & body sculpting classes ended.

I CAN FEEL MY FATS GROWING. serious.

its so hard to resist the temptation to snack throughout the day.. i'm even resorting to wear my retainers so that I stop eating. hahahaha =X

無聊

回繞著社會的要求, 握著無法控制的方向盤, 緊張, 憂鬱.
好無聊.
也許只能閉上眼睛, 坦然地撇開擾亂心情的雜物, 才得以釋放.
但說到容易,  做到難.
冰冷的心, 何時會融化.

=)

been a while since i blogged.. i'm not exactly busy, just lazy, plus blogging needs 'Feel'.

work has been great n i'm approaching my 3rd mth soon~  its so enjoyable each day that I'm eating way too much. I can feel it when my pants gets tighter. Grrrrr. i need to exercise more liao..

anw, i guess this shld be one of the best period of my life. --> becos there's NO EXAMS! i can neva forget the yuccky feeling of rushing assignments and mugging days. =X

Alright, on a side note, i think i need to make myself more independent.

Food for thought: Changing

So true.

 

Food for thought: perfections

When it's too perfect to be true, it's false.

Music: New found fav musician - Casey James

this is so addictive, esp on a sunday afternoon..

Music: 等等 by Olivia

讓結果停下來等等 那些飛舞的如果

Sick & Slack

Snorts.. i'm just gonna waste my precious sunday away even though i noe i have some stuffs on hand that i need to do. no mooooood n i can feel my head telling me 'i'm not gonna think a slight bit today'.

blame it on the weather, pms.... whatever.

n btw, happy monthsary to my worklife~ lols i'm feeling more blended into my clique and i guess work is picking up. looking forward to payday too =P

Food for Thought: 女人

女人啊女人，真不知是笨还是单纯。。

I can't help but say that education is extremely impt for a girl. its not solely about achieving financial independence, it is also about being able to analyze situations and think more in-depth.

The possibility of an educated girl being led by the nose by a guy is lesser. yes/no? what's your take?

Interesting read

Approaching 24 lo

i thought i should blog before i turn 24 tomorrow. lol!

so here it goes..

I've just stepped back into the workforce for about a week now.. Things have not quite stablized yet and I'm praying hard that the bits and pieces will fall in place nicely after a month or so. oh welllsss.... as usual, its the awkward and insecure phase at work where one needs to learn fast, make friends, observe ppl and act like a mature and intelligent person. not easy man! i'm trying hard to conceal my noobness =/

next step after my work has stablised would be to do some planning for the near future. some things would be to draw up a savings plan - the urge to shop for clothes is super duper high la!, start exercising on a regular basis, list down the things that I want/need to do, maybe start fishing so that my dear friends will stop nagging at me, oh n also write a will. haha.

Things are happening in such an unpredictable fashion~

alright, time to sleep X_X

Music: 明天的自己

你希望明天的自己是怎樣呢?

Music: 心裡的孩子

=)

忍

从小到大的生活，还真是平平安安，顺顺利利。

还记得我中四毕业后，写下了一个愿望。那就是让我遇到一个大考验，这样我才能真正地成长。

我猜这个愿望快要实现了。哈哈。 就让我这个温室里的小‘花’成长吧。

再会吧，风调雨顺的生活。崎岖的路， 我来咯！


忍。

Food for Thought: The End

Finally, the emotional roller coaster ride has ended. End of shuffling too.

I'm glad~ Time to get a good rest, recharge and get ready for future challenges.

Drama: 螺丝小姐要出嫁

Just finished watching the last episode of 螺丝小姐要出嫁.

<3 the ending phrase:

"曾经在爱里受伤过的女孩们， 我们都是最美丽的花朵。 上天给的那些心痛考验，都是为了帮我们筛选出最值得珍惜的那个人。然后在他的爱里，我们才能够温柔绽放。总有一天， 你会发现生命早就为你准备好最棒的人，在前方等着你."

Food for thought: Books VS real life

In my psychology books, I may have learnt the process of how people face and accept pending death. It seems pretty logical and true but in real life, I realised its different. really different. there are too many external factors that affect how one and others face death. scary, confusing, illogical at times. trouble boils when people have different opinions.

what's worst in my point of view is the whole emotional roller coaster that all involved parties have to face until everything subsides.        

"Accept it" is what many can easily say but not do it. But time will heal, I know.

please let there be a peaceful beginning and ending =)

Xmas 2012

Christmas was slightly different this year... no elaborate celebrations, no gifts. just my usual excitement admiring beautiful Christmas trees and mini-meetups. haha

Surprisingly, I prefer it this way since it certainly wasn't a time of celebration for me. Anyway,

Merry Christmas to all my family & friends. Stay blessed, cherish your loved ones and be HAPPY & POSITIVE! muacks=)

Fattiveggi: Cafe Salivation

Cafe Salivation

*New address: 176 Race Course Road (its nearer to the MRT now. Exit F from Farrer Park MRT, turn right and you'll see the cheery pink signboard)

 

 

I'm back here for their pizzas and other 'fattilicious' food! oops~ 

Paneer pizza

Rosemary potato wedges

Lasagna with soya granules and spinach

Hawaiian pizza

Laska (its a mixture of tomyum and laksa flavour, you either like it or hate it)

 

their food are still good but unfortunately, price inflation ah!!!! =(

 

Fattiveggi: LIU HE Vegetarian Food

LIU HE Vegetarian Food

Beauty World Centre, #04-28, 144 Bukit Timah Road, Singapore 588177

 

This is a stall tucked at a corner of the food centre on level 4 of Beauty World Centre.

Simple & wholesome food!

mixed veg soup

Claypot Rice (BEST liao! *this is not available on the 1st & 15th of the lunar month) 

sweet & sour 'fish' (too sour) 

stir-fry vegetable

 

*Must try the Claypot rice but rmb to get a few khakis to share with because the portion is quite huge~ value for $ too!

 

Fattiveggi: Just Greens Vegetarian Food / Sugalight ice cream

Just Greens Vegetarian Food

49-51 Joo Chiat Place, Singapore 472223

 

 

This vege eatery is a 'heaven' of mock meat dishes. =/ BUT thankfully, most of their dishes are accompanied with a fair share of green veggies so they are generally quite ok.

 

 

Steamed 'chicken'

Fried enoki mushroom

Braised tofu (recommended)

kangkong (not recommended. it was way too salty)

assam 'fish' (my grandma loved this dish the most but too spicy for me though)

'Sharkfin's' soup (this was good)

 

The dishes are generally flavourful but tend to be on the saltish side. It was mind-baffling to me why the restaurant received a healthier choice certificate.  Anyway, I wouldn't mind giving them another chance since I have the restaurant's life-time privilege card. well, perhaps it's just an excuse for me to travel to joo chiat and get the SUGALIGHT ice-cream!!!!!

 

*****************************************************************************

Sugalight Ice-cream are special, healthier, and really yummy!

 

"Sugalight Ice Creams are sweetened not with ordinary cane sugar but with Xylitol, a premium natural sweetener found in corn, berries and mushrooms. Xylitol is lower in calories than sugar, prevents tooth decay and does not cause dangerous spikes in blood sugar levels."

 

check out their website for more details: http://sugalight.com/

 

 

Music: Star

this is still one of my favourite song~ love Minhyuk's fresh vocals!

Food for Thought: Conformity VS Morality

I think this is important.

Music: Christina Perri - A Thousand Years

Amazing music. Play this rainymood together with the song for another piece of art. *rmb to soften the volume though.

对不起，我错了。

也许说再多的对不起也没用。我错了。原来做什么事情前都该深思，深思，再深思。哪怕一时的冲动，造成不必要的伤害。

勉强

对于亲情，友情，爱情， 勉强不是我的作风。只有努力或放弃。

华文，文化。

自从从中学毕业后，就再也没有拿起一本故事书了。近年来，忙着工作，学业， 朋友，家人，何曾有时间拿起一本故事书呢？

终于，大学读完了。现在也没工作，我便兴致勃勃地到了图书馆，借了一本‘尤今’ 的小品文。哇，原来能静静，细细的阅读，是件非常非常享受的事。一页又一页，都舍不得停下来。。 尤今的每一个小品文， 浑然天成，每一篇都让我有着一丝丝的感动。

正当我在静静阅读的途中，突然有了个领悟。我们每天每夜都在与外界联系与通讯， 能给自己的时间少之又少。我是个自私的人，所以觉得能拥有个人空间，享受平静， 是多么的珍贵。

所以，我决定了。时间，由我掌控。除了上帝，没有人能控制我。

Sub-conscious reigns..

I was really shocked by my sub-conscious thoughts that replayed themselves in my dreams for two consecutive nights while i was consciously thinking about an issue during the day.

it was scary but it has led me to think though more carefully about making any momentous decision.

but for now, i'm certain my conscious thoughts cannot win over my sub-conscious.

how?

Food for Thought: Poorest President

This morning I read this article posted by Dr Jiajia's FB page. It was about the world's poorest president. Check this out:

http://www.ukzambians.co.uk/home/2012/11/15/jose-mujica-meet-the-worlds-poorest-president/

& I absolutely adore this quote ->

“I’m called ‘the poorest president’, but I don’t feel poor. Poor people are those who only work to try to keep an expensive lifestyle, and always want more and more,” he says.


out of curiosity, i searched for '知足常乐' in youtube to see what i can find. and then i found this  song: 知足是幸福




顺境时不起贪念，逆境时不起憎恚。

Food for Thought: Erasers

Yums: Baked rice

Its been quite some time since I ventured into the culinary world... I'm always apprehensive to make a meal but after seeing how simple it is to whip up a meal thru my friend's blog.. I decided to give it a try~

So here's my veggie version of baked rice:


1. Cook your rice ( I used japanese pearl rice)

2. Slice button mushroom & cut mock ham into small cubes

3. Mix mushroom and ham with tomato puree and cook it slightly (Sprinkle a little oregano flakes)

4. Mix the tomato sauce with rice and place them in a casserole



















3. Slice potatoes & zucchini (soak them in salt water)




4. Layer the zucchini & potato slices on top of the rice, cover the top layer with mozzarella cheese. (I added gouda cheese for extra flavour)

5. Bake it in the oven at 230 degree for about 30 minutes

 

6. Garnish with baby spinach

 

YAY~ its edible. haha!

 

 

 



Food for Thought: Simplicity

Credits to: zazzle

Yums: Fruit punch

My mum made fruit tart this week so there was a box of leftover fruits. There are many times when I don't feel like eating fruit as it is.. I think I'm just lazy to chew =P

So I blended the kiwi, peach and strawberry with Florida's Orange-Strawberry juice and tada!!! healthilicious fresh fruit punch~  

Random: say or write?

I realise I have difficulties expressing myself. sometimes I show it, sometimes I don't. This is ironic, but it's me and that's a problem.

perhaps I'm better at expressing myself thru words, thru my blog. thru an indirect channel maybe.

alright, you might not understand what I'm talking about, neither am I clear-headed about this =P



I'd better get back to work on my final assignment, the most 'yuckky but interesting' mod I've taken in uni. plus 2 more exams and I'm done. I can't wait to move on because I can't imagine the future.

Food for Thought: Obstacles

"If you find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesn't lead anywhere." - Frank A. Clark

FattiVeggi: Bangkok

Sawadeeka~ haha this post shall be about finding vege food in bangkok. Not very comprehensive but i'm sure you'll eat and drink well. not much photos though cos i spent more time shopping. =/

here we go~

1. Platinum mall. One vege stall in foodcourt but closes around 6-7pm. food tends to get very limited then.

2. Krung Thong Plaza (opposite platinum mall). One vege stall in foodcourt. 8am - 6pm. recommend this stir-fry noodle. sweet & nice~




3. Indra Square foodcourt. 2 vege stalls. One indian(Jain food available) and one chinese.

4. MBK Plaza.

- one vege stall in the foodcourt(level 6). try their tom yum soup and stir-fry noodle
- one vege stall at Fifth Food Avenue(level 5). the more atas range.

    



- one half-veg restaurant at B1, Nova Restaurant. a very good selection of thai and chinese veg food.

 

 

5. Terminal 21. The new shopping centre in BKK. One vege stall in the foodcourt. Opens till 9pm. quite a huge variety of food.

 

6. Chamlong's Asoke Vegetarian food. Near Chatuchak Market. trying to find this place was not easy indeed. It was hidden in an alley amongst nightclubs. wat an irony. huge variety of food, cheap, but ordering them was tough because none of the staff understood english or mandarin. Thankfully we were lucky to meet a lady who could help us translate. =)

 

anw, this info that i koped from a webby was quite clear in giving the directions:

http://www.eatingthaifood.com/2011/07/bangkoks-vegetarian-grazing-zone-chamlongs-asoke-all-veg-food-court-at-chatuchak/

You can either walk from Chatuchak Market, or you can get off at Kampaeng Phet MRT station.

• Exit, or pass, the station – Exit #1
• Continue for about 100 meters in the direction away from the market
• Take a right at Roy’s Antiques shop
• Walk down the road and you’ll pass a couple of strange nightclubs, like Hareem’s on your right hand side
• Continue straight, past a little guard booth and you’ll end up in the parking lot (pictured above)
• Walk into the building and you’ll find the grazing zone in the back

Open Hours:

Tuesday – Friday: 6am – 2pm
Saturday – Sunday: 6 am – 3 pm

 

 

 

 



 

 

7. Try to go BKK in Oct during the Vegetarian Festival. Their Chinatown will be filled with foodstalls selling vege street food~ I was there a week earlier and there were already some stalls available. Its a major festival in BKK and even non-veg restaurants are putting up veg menu. even the supermarkets are selling many vege stuffs. Just keep a lookout for the veg flag in yellow and red~  

 

 

 

done! =D

 

 

Just for laughs: Short hair

So, i chanced upon some cruise photos about 5 years back and saw how horrendous i look with my short hair, fat cheeks(i still have them now) and boyish look. LMAO.

have a good laugh ppl becos u'll never see me in short hair probably for the rest of my life. =P

Food for Thought: Just take another shot?

"if only life was as simple as a camera."

Fattiveggi: Real Food Grocer Cafe

Real Food Grocer Cafe

Location: 110 Kiliney Road

Cutlery basket made from newspaper. cool eh?

Here, they serve a variety of Organic juices:

spinach, carrot, apple juice "I'm popeye the sailor man! poo poo!"

Wheatgrass Apple

Orange juice

Word of caution: *Stick to the safe juice options if you're not daring enough

alright, here comes the mains & sides:

Fried Vermicelli

Dumpling noodles Dry

Veggie Noodles

Bruschette with mushroom & cheese

Fried Dumpling

Mushroom Aglio Olio Pasta (not recommended. it was very dry and almost tasteless)

Pesto Pasta

Food wise was so-so, small portions but some were quite flavourful such as the veggie noodles and fried vermicelli.

Super love the laid-back atmosphere at this cafe. Its spacious and nicely lit. Definitely a good place to spend some quality time away from the hustle & bustle of orchard road and then slurp down a cup of organic juice. maybe some desserts too *think french toast, pancakes, ice cream. hmmm =P